Changes

I know I've been a serious SLACKER in the blogging department and haven't been meeting my end of the bargain in displaying pics and posts for your viewing pleasure. Well, I do have a good excuse and promise to uphold my blogging obligations very soon.
There have been some huge decisions I have had to face in the last little while that have changed my life dramatically. As hard as and as heart breaking as it's been I'm trying to make the best of it and turn it into a positive situation. Some of you may know what's been going on and for those of you don't I promise everything is fine and the blog will be up and running in no time at all.
There are some things that I don't feel are necessary to post and are just a little too personal and hit too close to home to talk about just yet, but the basis of what is going on that Jackson and I are no longer going to be together. I feel slightly embarrassed to even have to announce this, partly because of my pride and partly because I can not for the life of my freaking self believe I am here again, but I know it'll come out in the works sooner or later and would much rather the info come straight form the source and not passed from one person to another and turned into something it's not, which is easy to do.
Jackson is a great person and I have zero animosity towards him. In fact I almost wish I did because it would make this situation a million times easier. One favor you can all for me is please don't be too quick to point the finger...meaning, this has been very difficult for both he and I and I'm sure very hard on our families and if there is one thing I have learned through this it is that our Heavenly Father is the only one that can judge, thank goodness, and Jackson is beating himself up over this enough and doesn't need anyone else to. He was a huge part of my life for a very long time & I hold he and his family in the highest regard and want them to know how much I love and respect them.
Marriage is something I take very seriously and it's hard not to feel like a failure when you have tried at something for sooo long and just can not seem to get it to work. That is why I am trying with my very best efforts to look back with no regrets and take everything I have learned to make me a better person and use it to strengthen me and use it for the future. I truly believe if you have learned from a situation, good or bad, then it's never in vain.
I have a great support system and do not know how I got so lucky. It's times like this that I feel closest to my Savior. I know I need him every second of the day to get through it which causes me to be completely dependent upon him. I have felt great peace and his overwhelming love for myself and for Jackson these passed few weeks and I know for a fact that there are many nights my sweet mom has had her arms around me giving me her comfort. It's crazy how sometimes trials can make your testimony grow so much!
I am absolutely okay and know it will only continue to get better. One of the things I hate most is when people feel sorry for me. I have hit a rough patch but will pick myself up and move on. I have such an amazing life full of people I love. I in no way feel cheated and am glad for the experiences I've been through. I feel very strong and know that one day I will be able to look back and understand a little more why certain things happen.
With that said, I will soon be changing my blog address and will post it asap so you all can change it on your friend list....I'm sure it'll be something lame like keeleeandwillis.blogspot.com, haha. Willis is my dog/child for those of you who don't know. Thank goodness for my stupid little dog!!! Whoa, that was a looong post, thanks for sticking it out. TTFN